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On the outside looking in

Everything is becoming humorous and insignificant. My day to day life is filled with observations of these organisms that have no idea what’s going on around them. I watch their predictable behavior, laugh at their ridiculous habits, and am amused by our social constructs that they obediently follow. I still maintain much of my obedience as well, but see the absurdity in it. I often picture moments when I could do something extremely odd but don’t simply because I’m not sure of the ramifications. It’s not necessarily because of the immediate “embarrassment” I may feel, but rather how it will affect my life down the road…not that eccentric behavior is bad.

2015-03-16: I’ve never been happy with this analysis because I was lying. I would be embarrassed in the moment, I’m not brave enough to let go and do something crazy like that. I was telling the truth about long-term implications though and give my past self an approving nod. I have seen potential perspectives other people might have towards me and it’s almost always negative (there’s probably something to be said about that, but that’s another point entirely), instead these negative perspectives are because I have seemingly disappointed their expectations. I am not the person I think other people want me to be and thus I’ve recognized it on occasion and felt incredibly bad. So in one respect I’m glad I didn’t go the crazy route and let go entirely because that path would have truly alienated me beyond repair. Instead I have been quietly exploring under the table, damaging my perceived reputation in small manageable increments over the course of a few years. But it is ultimately repairable and I can return to perceived normalcy a stronger and more capable person. Oh and regarding the first part about laughing at people’s ridiculous behavior, that still happens quite regularly, but it doesn’t have an undertone of insanity, elitism, and is somewhat less humorous than at first. I suppose after awhile the joke gets old…

Magic and Monsters

The evolution of religion: we started with fantastical stories of magic and monsters because people knew so little about the world. As we learned more the old religions were forced to update. Eventually entirely new renditions were born with names like Christianity and Judaism. In modern times we have the latest revisions which are still being updated and tweaked, but seem to be failing at captivating their audience. To blame? Education is most likely teaching us too much about the world for them to appear real anymore. But religions will persist because people will demand purpose and meaning and instead a new batch of religions will be born and the cycle will continue.

This also raises an interesting question: has this happened before? When established religions begin to die, there must be people too attached that are willing to resort to extreme measures to try and protect them. We should be cautious of this. But ultimately new generations, more open to fresh ideas, will adopt new religions and beliefs, eventually allowing the old religions to die with their last supporters. It also might mean that institutions like Mormonism and Scientology, despite the absurdity of their teachings, may someday be far reaching religions. Although we cannot forget that modern times are different. With our ability to store information and share ideas, religions may have lost much of their power permanently.

Lastly, I wonder if people who have strong religious beliefs can’t actually comprehend what it’s like to not have beliefs? Fundamental concepts are very abstract and belief vs non-belief may actually be impossible for some minds to grasp if they’ve been indoctrinated.

Update 6/28/2013: it seems that most people need some sort of belief in their life, whether that be concretely religious, loosely spiritual, or simply a strong belief in something like business or government. They tend to hone in on some specific thing that defines their existence which makes sense since most people can’t dedicate years of their life actually determining what’s going on around them. Distracting yourself is easier and cheaper.

Religions formed for very obvious reasons and in turn can be easily broken down with minimal research. Man created religion and it evolved as an institution over time, gradually making changes as society progressed. Their mystical claims are clearly false and severely flawed, but what’s interesting is that religions may not function without at least one absurd element (ex. God, Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, Joseph Smith, aliens, etc). People need a symbol to gather around otherwise you’ve just developed a normal community which will eventually disintegrate without focus on a common enemy or purpose. This answers the question, “why can’t we have the good parts of religion (community, donations, etc.) without the weird religious part?” We do have these, they are governments, businesses, clubs, organizations, communities, etc. Adding an absurd element you can convince people of only serves to make it stronger.

It would also be very saddening if Christianity, or one of the others, turned out to be true because it’s so obviously flawed and weak. There are so many elements to it that are non-intelligent, non-wise, and non-enlightened. It would also be depressing to think that roughly 2000 years ago we basically “figured it out”. If Christianity and God are the end game, then what’s the point of the rest of the universe? How could our more primitive brethren, who knew less about the world than we do, have solved all our great problems? The answer is: they didn’t. Religions merely exist to maintain order, help build society, and give you peace of mind. Nothing more, nothing less, nothing mystical. Another way to think about it is: during the early ages there were many pagan religions because people didn’t know how else to explain things. Whatever fantastic idea popped into their head could explain lightning, volcanoes, and the seasons. As societies formed, governments, businesses, and business-like organizations (we call them religions) formed. It would be foolish to think that smart, pioneering individuals didn’t see the power, wealth, and influence behind these religions and wanted that for themselves. In fact, governments most likely requested these organization because they wanted to unify the people. Trying to run a civilization with competing religions probably didn’t work well, especially if they’re violent and sacrificial. It is reasonable to assume they designed and implemented Christianity and other religions for this reason. You may say, “but people claimed Jesus cured them and performed miracles!” Of course he did because rich and powerful folk paid or ordered people to say those things (if they even needed to go that far). For example, a man who’s always had sight receives payment simply by claiming he used to be blind, and a religion is born through successful marketing. This is a far more realistic and simple explanation for the rise of religions than magic. If Jesus were real and could use special powers than we have to explain an entirely new branch of magic science which is by far a more convoluted answer and thus far less likely.

Lastly, religious belief exists among intelligent and/or wealthy people for 1 of 2 reasons: 1. they were indoctrinated early and either believe it or have always “believed in their belief” of it and aren’t going to change or, 2. they utilize their beliefs as an image to inspire common people to follow or support them, generally for power-related reasons. There is also those who pursue religion entirely out of power or financial reasons, enticing followers to donate or give their allegiance. It is probably rare, and an exception to the rule, for actual intelligent people to actually believe in religions.

The Idiots in Washington

When people complain that their government is handling geopolitics or domestic issues wrong, it’s important to note that you most likely do not see the whole strategy. Unless you’ve spent countless hours researching and are connected to high ranking individuals who can feed you confidential intelligence, you’ve only seen some of the moves. It’s like looking at a chessboard that’s 50 moves in but you’ve only seen a few moves here and there, spaced at random (and never the entire board at once). Thus it would be foolish to complain and protest when player X moves his rook. You do not see where it lands or how it’s positioned on the board and you do not see the enemies pieces. There’s a lot of data missing. Then you must also consider that the United States, and other nations, routinely hire hundreds, if not thousands, of brilliant analysts that sit around and consider these strategies. They take into account variables you’ve never considered, they balance gains and losses you cannot see, they interact with covert organizations and individuals, they look at funds both private and public, the list goes on. To complain and say, “those idiots in Washington don’t know what they’re doing! I could do better!” is nothing short of foolish ignorance.

The interesting counterpoint to consider here is that transparency is important. Governments who grow too powerful and can remain hidden from their people are dangerous, but at the same time, they cannot simply reveal their strategies because enemies can use that information against them. So what’s the solution? It’s not obvious nor easy.

Remember, it’s easy to feel like you know the answers, but really hard to actually know them. Challenge yourself.

The experience of first sight

It is profoundly important to the human experience. It is not a state of enlightenment or spiritual awakening, you are not connecting with God or the universe on a new dimension, but rather you are simply seeing the world from your own eyes, unobstructed, for the first time. You are leaving behind what you’ve been taught and the rules you’ve been told exist. It is a powerful moment and thus can be frightening and disturbing. It is the realization that everything you know is suddenly incorrect or misguided and is not easy to swallow, but it is necessary for growth.

Storing data behind your eyelids

While I was just meditating I had a moment of…hm, I’m not sure what to call it. Let me preface this with something. When I was learning about Ayahuasca (DMT) they mentioned this vast inner chamber that you can experience. Almost like a massive dome inside your mind or perceived outside your body; more or less just a significantly large space. During one previous meditation session I felt this momentarily, like there was a large inner world inside my mind. It was a brief experience. I just had a similar experience right now during this session. I felt an inner space behind my eyes. Basically like there was a bulletin board or room within my mind for an “inventory”. And it got me thinking, perhaps there could be a memory method developed around this. Inside our minds, around our eyes, accessible simply by closing them and looking up, down, left, or right, we could quickly access bits of data. By consciously planting information in these slots, they could be written and memorized very quickly.

The conceptual omnipotent mind of God

If God could hear and see us all at once, know what we know, and feel how we feel, he would appear omnipotent. He could tell us what we were going to do next based on the amount of data he has access to (with the assumption that he has a perfect memory with instant access to any part of it). This seemed more profound when I thought of it, but now that I write it down it seems really obvious. Huh.

UPDATE 2018-09-09: the real point to this entry is to highlight that knowing things about other people varies in accuracy. The conceptual notion of an omnipotent God reveals that outside people can predict with varying accuracy hidden information about us. “God” is on the farthest end, with perfect insight and an ability to freely know what it is we’ll say next, do next, what we’re thinking right now. Even ourselves cannot know exactly why we think the way we do. This idea of an omnipotent God may get pushed aside by a faux intellectual mind because it appears “religious” on the outside, but a philosophical mind that’s free to explore any territory can learn from anything.

Parent-Child Nodes and Nuclear Weapons

Not sure how this just popped into my head, but what if the reason we didn’t want countries like Iran and North Korea pursuing nuclear weapons went beyond the obvious destruction those devices could cause. What if the path that nuclear research went down revealed even more destructive powers only witnessed in secret laboratories. After decades of nuclear and associated research, is it not possible they’ve stumbled upon greater threats?

UPDATE 2015-03-14: I want to avoid political issues as much as possible, but one interesting thing this post suggests is that the obvious often masks something more sinister at play. Issues drawn to the front like nuclear proliferation might only be a distraction or the tip of the iceberg. There are probably good questions you can ask that branch away from talking about nuclear weapons and reveal related issues that are more prevalent to what’s actually going on.

UPDATE 2018-09-09: This is about parent topics and child subtopics. We spend our time focused on big picture items like “nuclear proliferation” with a few subtopic nodes to convince others of our “advanced understanding”, but if you could see the whole tree, what percentage of related knowledge do you really have? I would wager it’s not a big number. How can we feel so confident about our knowledge when we know so little?

What I Learned from Randy Pausch’s Last Lecture

One of the most inspirational and heart warming speeches I’ve ever watched was Randy Pausch’s Last Lecture. He delivered it shortly before he died of pancreatic cancer in 2008. Within he talks about achieving your childhood dreams and accomplishing goals. I encourage you to watch it and I provide these notes as a reference to check back on if you need a quick reminder of his inspiration.

  • “Have specific dreams” – choose dreams that are specific and realistic. Instead of becoming an astronaut, Randy’s specific dream was to experience zero-gravity. Don’t choose dreams that are big picture, choose specific ones because accomplishing them will get you what you want anyways.
  • “If you’re goofing off and no ones saying anything, then that means they’ve given up on you” – if you’re getting yelled at or criticized about your work, it simply means that person cares about your success, when it stops you’re in a bad place.
  • “Experience is what you get when you didn’t get what you wanted”
  • We are in an age of cynicism
  • Brick walls [in life] are not there to stop us, they are there to prove how badly we want something. They separate us from those that don’t really want to achieve.
  • There’s always another way to say something that’s better, kinder, and more professional. “I don’t know anything about this, it doesn’t sound like a good idea, we should reconsider” OR “I don’t know anything about this, but you look excited, tell me more”. Keep this as a note, if someone seems excited or passionate about something, NEVER simply brush it off.
  • If someone considers you a mentor, or someone reports to you with completed projects and they totally blow you away. Understand that “the bar” should never be set by you. Respond simply, “you did good, but I think you can do better”. Even though it may be amazing work, you’d only be doing them a disservice of setting the bar. Let them continue to advance and set the bar themselves.
  • You can use body language to tell how good something will be by the team that’s developing it. If they are standing close and comfortable around each other (they’ve become friends throughout the development cycle), then the project will be good.
  • If you’re going to pioneer something (eSports, hint hint) then expect to get arrows in the back (or the knee). If something can go wrong, it will, so be ready and expect it.
  • If you are retiring or stepping down from something, find someone the force is strong with to hand if off to (someone who is even better than you).
  • A Right Brain / Left Brain team. Perhaps I should find someone who matches my weaknesses. Getting help and building a team is important, don’t brush it off.
  • Be humble.
  • He had a bar chart that polled your fellow students and displayed how easy you were to work with, in front of the whole class. You could see how you stacked up and it was hard to ignore that kind of data.
  • If we all chip in, even just a little bit, it helps the world become a better place. Donating a small amount or helping even just a single person can really change things.
  • “It’s a shame people perceive you as so arrogant, because it’s going to limit the things you can do in life” instead of “you’re a jerk to people”
  • Respect authority while questioning them
  • Expose yourself to all ages and types of people whenever possible because you never know what someone will teach you
  • Loyalty is a two way street.
  • Stick to your principles. Be honest. Be earnest. Apologize when you screw up. Show gratitude.
  • Be good at something, it makes you valuable. Work hard and people will ask “what’s your secret?” Find the best in everybody, no one is all evil. Luck is where preparation meets opportunity.

If there’s anything important I missed, be sure to leave a comment and I’ll add them.

A never-ending flood of questions

I was driving today, thinking as usual about my future and ideals, and realized something that I’ve thought of before. Maybe things in my life are happening for a reason. Recently I’ve come to understand what money truly is and the value, or lack of value, behind it. As my thoughts and mindset evolves I’m becoming more and more enlightened. Perhaps this evolution is preordained and available to all people on this planet, but perhaps most don’t discover it or pursue it. Maybe disconnection from this reality and establishing a new one is the key. It isn’t about being above people or elite, or rich or powerful, but rather about moving onto a new plane of thought. It’s about disconnecting yourself from this humanity and developing a new one. My priorities have been wrong this whole time. It isn’t about making tons of money so I can go out and change the world. It’s about the evolution of thought, the understanding of the universe, money is simply a tool. Separate yourself, be kind and generous, don’t allow the struggles and flaws of this world control or manipulate you. They are petty and inferior to the future of mankind… I don’t know. Something like that.

None dare call it conspiracy

I’m reading an article entitled “None dare call it conspiracy” by Gary Allen. He talks about some really interesting economic manipulation that has been going on for over a century. How international banks use debt to control a nations currency, and how controlling currency gives immense, if not, penultimate power to a single person or organization. He also talks about the Great Depression and has some interesting points there as well. Moreover this article is solidifying my belief that what happens and what really happens are two totally different things.

Update 7/16/2013: as a point of skepticism, it’s important to remember that there has always been conspiracy theorists and they were undoubtedly always able to publish books and pamphlets. We seem to forget this and regard any historical text as “obviously true”.

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